heart, mind, body, and soul.

Prone to wander, I have not allowed Christ Jesus to guard my heart. And now i'm suffering for it.. but as always, even now, "God is good". Well I don't really want to say those 3 words. Not because I don't believe it, but because it would sound like an "empty hallelujah" right now.

In honesty, I am not satisfied with who I am, where I am, and what I'm doing. I have tried living in the fact that his grace is sufficient, but I still have not let go of my own desires. Is this dissatisfaction supposed to make me desire something deeper? Probably yes. I am starting to realize some of the things that I have to let go of, but knowing that His ways (and He himself) are better for me have yet to make the letting-go any less painful and me any less stubborn.